yes. hi. hello. me again.
figured i would share a few details of the surgery
content ⚠ warning
- surgery pictures
- transgender thoughts
- family childhood thoughts
- gore / stitches / scars
i snapped a few selfies while i was waiting to go into the operating room. i’ll share those in a moment.
detaching from my body
this might be a bit odd, but i really felt lucky about having such a concrete out-of-body experience.
i really believe that there are 2 main components to me as a person
- the body (meat sack if you will)
- the soul / my mind / me
i feel like my job as a “driver” in my life, is to use my body as a little vehicle for my adventures in life.
here are some surgery thoughts i scribbled down on my phone (i do not remember writing these). however – i feel like these are pretty great 🙂
needless to say i felt very much like climbing, and my practice of being able to detach my bodily fears from my mental fears really came in handy.
i am proud to report i was very calm and peaceful through the entire process.
notice a few things
- distance from eyebrows to eye balls
- distance from eyebrows to hair line
- curve of eye brows
now we can also see
- wideness of eyes (surprised look on my face)
- toxic female beauty nose
- shorter distance from eyebrow to hairline
- square / non receding hairline
first day home
after 24 hours in the hospital - i was sent home with a full face dressing - this dressing will be on for the next week or so.
the surgeon Dr. Deschamps-Braly had remarkable and meticulous dexterity with his work. even my primary care doctor agreed his work was beautiful.
anyway - next week we should have our first glimpses into the “new” naked face.
i could cry - im so happy to finally have parts of what felt like my soul - given back to me.
i truly feel like my innocence was slightly restored. the scars of my life and childhood are finally reflected physically.